What I understand of Love

This week my mind ran across the concept of Love and Unconditional love, and how I want to feel about myself, my life , others and how I really feel about them.
I warn any one that may read... I am not a writer. I will try to keep from looking like a buffoon, but I really don't care for or about spelling, grammer, etc.....

I want to enjoy my life more. Those that know me and know me well, know that I am a lover of fun. I am. Plain and simple. I think I was put here to enjoy and to help others enjoy life. No matter what, I think it's a blessed thing to be able to find a reason to smile and laugh everyday. This year I am trying to do it better. I think I may have figured out one major component. Love! Sounds so easy right? I don't mean, Eros love. You know that romantic love. It is not that loyal, responsible love like family love. I dare compare it with Agape love but it is certainly trying to be that. Good ole fashion unconditional love.
There lies the challenge and the prize! To be able to honestly, wholly, love every situation you are in. You can be uncomfortable, but always have a greater love for the moment. That goes for every place from the poorest to the richest, smallest to grandest, they belong because they are. Every person. To be able to love the God that is in everything and pray about what we don't like.
live in love.
I am learning to Love me in a deeper way. I fell in love with me over 20 years ago, but I'm falling in love again. That sounds really weird, but it's true. I want to change the way my body is right now. But my current body is still me and I am beautiful. I want every once of me to know it is loved as is.... and I only want what is best for us. I try to love my husband with this attitude as well as my kids, but am I succeeding? I think I need to start practicing with my self as well. In the past I have not told myself I was beautiful when I didn't measure up to what I want. I am still beautiful even if I know I can be even finer. Well, I deserve to be loved as is! I am going to love myself, all of myself from this day forward. I think the more we practice a thing the easier it becomes. I will love myself the way I love my children, my husband. Whom ever I love the best, I will try to love the rest as well. hmmmmm. Sounds yummy.

I want to enjoy life more by loving it in it's current state while working to make it better.

Greetings

I have started this blog to be a partner for myself in 2010. I am currently a bit over stressed and overweight and over booked. There in lies my goals for this new year.
I want to loose weight, but more importantly I want to be a healthier person. I want to walk, stretch, breath and eat better. I know what I need to do I just need to do it!
I want to learn to say NO. I have had two days over this holiday season in which I did close to nothing!!!! Can you believe that? Nothing all day long. Most folks experience this at least once every two weeks or so. I volunteer at Church, the kids school, in Non-profit orgs. I never have a day of doing nothing unless I am traveling on vacation. I want to to make sure that one day every 2-3 weeks is unscheduled and does not get anything slid onto it. It will be my own personal retreat. I will not clean house, wash clothes or any of the endless duties that have to be done. I will not do them that day.
Finances are another of my goals for the new year. It is not that I have been doing poorly, but I can do better. I need to pay off several little debts. Really they are small. The largest is about $1300 in Student loans. I have to start savings for health cost and for our emergency fund.
These are my goals for the new year. Let's see how it goes...